I remember when my infertility diagnosis was relatively new. Visions of my past mistakes and rebellion flashed before my eyes, and I would get a sinking feeling in my stomach. I began recollecting my decision not to stay pure before marriage. Though I was not a Believer at that time, my heart still broke at those thoughts of promiscuity. One day I felt a darkness -- a sense of guilt, panic, and anxiety rushed over me. My mind was racing: “Is God punishing me because of my sexual rebellion and lack of obedience?” “Is my infertility because of my sin and dirtiness?” "Did I ruin our hopes of becoming a family?" A couple years ago, I experienced a moment that radically impacted my walk … [Read more...]