I sat on my couch texting my friends: "I feel purposeless." I wrote about it in my private blog: "I have no purpose right now." The only thing I kept repeating to my husband was: "What am I supposed to do? I have no purpose, Matt." In the beginning stages of my infertility walk, I turned to online forums, infertility hashtags, and surface-level devotionals. But these lets-only-talk-about-our-pain relationships in the infertility community hindered rather than helped me. Constantly talking in "infertility language" like (CD, POS, DPO, CM, PUPO), using a screen name, never showing my face, and only telling people what day of my cycle I was in was a rollercoaster of confusion, anxiety, and … [Read more...]