I earned my bachelors degree in English and writing from a liberal arts college on the Illinois/Iowa border. I was actively involved in my sorority as president, and the captain of my dance team. I enjoyed my friendships and experiences, but lived a typical “college lifestyle” that left me unfulfilled, broken, and confused. And though I grew up in a Christian home, I strayed from the Lord in high school and college. Frankly, I didn’t think I needed God — nor was I interested in being a Christian and “giving up” the life I was leading.
But shortly after graduation, I began volunteering at our church in the children’s ministry while I awaited a full-time job (yes, I was volunteering in a place I really didn’t want to be, but the Lord was planting seeds). There I met my current mother-in-law, who introduced me to her son — the love of my life and best friend, Matt. Matt was committed to the Lord, but I had no true faith to claim. I attended church with him, but that was the extent of it. As time passed, I felt a longing in my heart that I couldn’t shake. One day I asked the Lord to change me — I confessed that I didn’t know how to love Him, but I desired to, and I wanted to be genuine about it. A few weeks later, I broke down crying when I heard the song “Mighty to Save” and was eagerly listening to our pastor’s sermon for the first time. That day, I knew the Spirit entered my heart; my eyes were opened for the first time, and the world had a new light that I’d never seen before. From that point forward, I thirsted and deeply desired to be a follower of Jesus Christ.
In 2009, Matt and I married a year and a half after we began dating. The wedding was beautiful and perfect as perfect can be. My dress had a long train enrobed in Swarovski crystals. My diamond ring sparkled. Fabric from my mother’s wedding gown had been wrapped around my bouquet. The weather was a perfect 65 degrees. My dad and I surprised everyone with a hilarious choreographed dance, and my college dance team and I performed “Thriller” for our guests. We laughed, we loved. It was only the beginning of our life as one.
In our pre-marital counseling, Matt and I had a section on our thoughts regarding having a family. We both agreed that we wanted children almost immediately — starting within a year of our marriage. Both our parents had their families as young couples, and we loved having younger parents and grandparents to experience life with. It seemed that, naturally, our path would unfold the same way. But the Lord had different plans for us.
After a couple years of unsuccessfully getting pregnant, I was diagnosed with PCOS, short for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. PCOS is one of the top hormone endocrine disorders for women. Not only does it affect my fertility, but it affects my daily life — I struggle with extreme fatigue, random weight gain, fuzzy memory, anxiety, depression, low-functioning thyroid, and embarrassing cosmetic issues.
As of date, we have explored two rounds of infertility treatment including ovulation-inducing drugs paired with intra-uterine insemination. Both rounds “failed” with no detectable pregnancy. We are taking a break from the physically and emotionally draining journey to enjoy our marriage, family, friends, and life without added pressure or worry. Though we take every day as it is given, we do have plans to continue pursuing a family. Our hope and prayer is that the Lord will fulfill the desires of our heart with a child; but in the meantime, we won’t stop proclaiming His goodness amongst our struggle. A deeper look into our infertility story may be read HERE.
I spend my time at home in the suburbs of Chicago working as an independent writer, copy editor, and communications professional. I’m a contributing writer for Unlocking the Bible and Of Larks; I lead a small group of women every week in Bible study, lead Gospel application workshops at my church, and have a passion for serving and ministry. I also recently began teaching cooking and nutrition classes to children every week through an awesome company, Sticky Fingers Cooking.
Matt and I love nature trails and playing with our Goldendoodle fur-baby, Rudy. When I’m not working I enjoy spending time with a nice cup of coffee or a chai tea latte reading Scripture. It is my honor to daily declare Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior — and I am constantly in awe of His active work in my life. This website, Lord-willing, is only the beginning of our plans to honor Him.